Hello friends! Sorry it’s taken me so long to post more about my Seeing Eye adventure. I meant to post on Saturday, then Sunday, but as you’ll soon read, they have kept us very very busy, and when I’m not fully on with my new Little Buddy, I have desperately needed to decompress by myself or with friends in person or on the phone, but definitely not on social media.
I’m not going to share specific details about Little Buddy in this post, not because I’m not confident that it’s a good match or anything like that, just that I think she deserves a post all her own to fully capture her majesty.
*Gasp!* Spoiler alert: Little Buddy is a girl!
So stay tuned for a post all about her and only her, complete with pictures, tomorrow. I hope.
I have to say, this has been such a roller coaster of a class so far. The high points have been incredible. But I was also crying in the laundry room on Saturday so yeah there have been some low points too.
This is going to be a long post, and it’s a bit of a roller coaster too, but bear with me. There’s a happy ending.
I’m sure my previous classes here at the Seeing Eye had their bumps in the road, but I don’t remember them at all. When I look back, both for Mopsy and Neutron, they were both perfect matches and it was smooth sailing from start to finish.
But Jameyanne, you say, don’t you constantly joke about how you and Neutron failed revolving door training last time you were here?
Shhh! It was perfect nothing went wrong ever! Neutron and I even managed a revolving door perfectly on our last working trip together!
I say all this not to say this has been unusually difficult, but to comfort myself that in a few years, I’ll probably look back at this time in class and think that nothing went wrong at all, no problems whatsoever. Because I do think it’s a great match! Little Buddy and I are going to have a bunch of adventures together! And while crying in the laundry room was definitely not something that happened during either of my last two classes, I also wasn’t coming to either of those classes after two years full of so many huge life changes like I am this time. So I have to remember to be nice to myself.
To backtrack a bit and try to take this is some kind of order, from Thursday to Saturday, we focused on working with our dogs to safely navigate a route called the South Street route. We did the route twice each day, with our instructor at first staying right at our shoulder both helping to orient us to the route and coaching us on working with our new dogs. On Sunday morning, we worked the route completely on our own, with our instructors really far back to observe.
The South Street route is basically a big rectangle, but the trick is we don’t start at one of the corners, but just shy of a quarter of the way down one of the long sides of the rectangle. We start at the Seeing Eye’s downtown training center, then walk three and a half blocks down Maple Street to Madison. At that corner we turn left and walk along Madison to South Street (hence the name). We walk a full four blocks up South Street to market, take a left and follow Market back to Maple, then take a left on Maple and go that last half block back to the training center. All the while we are navigating through pedestrians and sidewalk clutter like poles and sandwich boards, tree routes and icy patches, and of course handling all the street crossings and navigating around some planned obstacles our instructors set up along the way, including some trainers with pet dogs designed to distract our dogs and fake construction barricades that take us out into the street. Our second time through the route, our class manager also started driving around the route, deliberately cutting us off so we would know what it feels like to follow our dog through what we call a traffic check, when our dog stops us to avoid a car that has cut across our paths.
So I’m doing all of this with Little Buddy, who you have to remember that as of Thursday I’d only had for 24 hours. At first, our biggest problem is that she was very very attached to my instructor, who trained her. She would listen to me, but she was constantly looking back. I wasn’t concerned though because she did listen when I verbally corrected this behavior. She handled the navigation around the barricade, the dog distractions that were both planned and unplanned, and the traffic checks beautifully. And there were parts of the route where we were just flying along. This dog is also just so smart and sweet, and I felt like we were bonding really well.
On Friday, we started to struggle though. She slowed way down on some blocks for no reason and wouldn’t speed up whatever we tried. Then suddenly I couldn’t get her to turn to the left, and then we started having trouble going up and down stairs—she was going so slowly I was really starting to struggle with my knee, because after my knee surgery two years ago, I really need some momentum on the stairs.
We practiced turns on this harness handle on wheels that they have on the main campus, and my instructor thought the problem was my arm position. My elbow was popping out to the side, when it should really be tucked into my ribs. I stuck a piece of paper between my arm and my side and practiced turns with the wheely thing holding the paper there until I thought I had it, while Little Buddy watched in deep confusion.
But then it seemed I was pushing the harness too far forward, so we switched me to a shorter harness handle. For a hot second it felt like that solved all my problems, until we started struggling again. This time it was my wrist bent wrong. It should be extended in front of me, if not a little concave, but I was bending it and pushing the harness forward. When I pushed the harness handle forward, Little Buddy would lose the feeling of tension in the harness and slow down, which would cause me to lose the feeling of the pull, which is how she is guiding me, and we’d basically come to a stop. And me trying to correct myself seemed to be confusing her even more. I felt absolutely terrible, because I’d experienced what it was like to be flying along with her, but I’d picked up these bad habits from the last few years of working Neutron, and Little Buddy didn’t understand my language and I didn’t understand hers, and it felt like whatever we tried we weren’t communicating.
Saturday morning was a bit icy, and since they’d salted the roads we had to put booties on the dogs, which of course they hated, and that just made all my issues worse. Little Buddy was being extra persnickety about everything, and even parts of the route that we’d previously done great at were a real struggle.
By Saturday afternoon I felt absolutely terrible. My instructor had said she wanted to zip tie my harness to stop me from pushing the handle forward, something I didn’t know they could even do. My instructor reassured me that none of this was a big deal and I shouldn’t worry. She wasn’t worried. Well I wasn’t worried until she said that. Now I was definitely worried. By Saturday afternoon, I had worried myself into a mess, and my instructor had the afternoon off so I was just stewing (don’t recommend BTW). I felt like actually even though I loved Little Buddy already, maybe it wasn’t going to be a good match after all, and it would be all my fault, because I was doing everything wrong. It didn’t help that the person I most wanted to talk to about my week, all the joys of meeting Little Buddy and those first amazing routes together and then how things got hard and all my feelings now, of course, was my mom. And I couldn’t call her. And then of course my clothes came out of the dryer soaking wet, which is when the tears started.
Huge thanks go to the classmates who gave me hugs down in the laundry room and continued to check in throughout the rest of the day, gave me pep talks, or else provided helpful advice, like how I should think of working a guide as water skiing—if I don’t have tension in the harness, I can’t go because that’s what’s pulling me along (or in this case guiding me). I especially appreciate that this classmate also told me that for both her first and second dogs, she had to have her harness zip tied because she was doing the same thing, and both times she got through it had many years of adventures with her dogs. Our class manager also assured me that no, it was not actually possible to fail our solo route on Sunday morning, because it was not a test, more a chance for us to work our dogs on our own while our instructors observed from a distance so they could see what else we needed to work on (as of Saturday night I was pretty sure for me that was everything, and we wouldn’t stop at just zip tying my harness, we would need to duct tape my arm into the correct position).
Even though she said the solo wasn’t a test, I didn’t sleep well Saturday night, and our 5:30 AM wakeup call was not super welcome. I felt super groggy and stressed and just generally not with it, even though I knew that probably wouldn’t help anything because our dogs are so attuned to our emotions.
My instructor was at my door before breakfast with the new harness with the zip ties. She helped me work Little Buddy down to breakfast, and things went much better than they had been going, particularly on the stairs. But I was still pretty nervous about the solo. I wanted this to work so badly.
I don’t know if it was the absence of the evil snow booties on Sunday morning, or all the practice with the wheely thing was finally paying off, or if the third harness was the charm, or maybe if Little Buddy and I were finally just talking on the same wavelength, but whatever it was, it worked. From that first step out of the training center, it finally clicked. We were in perfect sync. Moving together, listening to each other, avoiding obstacles, making great street crossings, just flying down the block. When we successfully made the left turn ad Maple and Madison, I actually shouted “Victory is ours!” loud enough that my instructor heard half a block away and cracked up. Even on that last block on Market Street, where the sidewalk narrowed and Little Buddy had the hardest time keeping up her pace on previous trips, I kept her going steadily forward.
We cruised back into the training center, and Little Buddy and I mutually threw ourselves at each other while my instructor squealed in delight.
There are still things to work on, of course. There’s a reason training isn’t just four days and one four-block by one-block rectangle. But we did it! We did it! We did it!
And here’s another spoiler alert for a future post about the route we’re working on this week: the solo wasn’t a fluke.
Whatever finally worked seems to have solved all the problems, and Little Buddy and I are cooking! I’m now looking forward to our trip into New York next week, where we’ll really put her through her paces. And even more-so, I’m picturing us cruising around D.C. at 4 miles per hour, taking the city by storm.
This post is already way longer than I meant it to be, but a few other thoughts I want to memorialize. First, the food is delicious. I haven’t kept track of every meal, and I’m on a special diet so it’s not the same as the rest of the class. I’m sorry to all the Seeing Eye regulars who are following this adventure who were hoping for loving descriptions of food (you’ll have to check out some of my fiction for that). Unrelated, I have to say I do love existing in a place that is designed to be entirely accessible to the blind, from Braille labels on the coffee machines and vending machines to strategically placed carpeting to help us oriented, and of course the tables and chairs with no bars or rungs underneath, perfect for settling our dogs under. And finally, there is at least one case of confirmed covid in the class. Precautions have been taken, and most if not all of us are continuing to mask full time, but please cross your fingers that it doesn’t spread further. Finally, I am tired of wearing long underwear 24/7. I love this dog and I’m so glad I’m here, but January classes are not my favorite.
Oh and one more thing: I can’t believe that all of this happened in just four days! As of Sunday, we’d had our dogs for five days. And we made so much progress and have done so much together already!
I’m planning to post again tomorrow and give you all the specifics about Little Buddy and all her amazing majestic speedy glory. Why can’t I tell you now, you ask? Because now that things are going well, I’m enjoying torturing you just a little bit. Also I want to go to bed. So stay tuned!