Seeing Eye Day 3: Dog Day

Today was the day!

Today I met Little Buddy!

I am exhausted but happy right now, writing this from bed with Little Buddy in their crate beside me, wagging their tail whenever I look their way. But let’s back up.

First of all, as I mentioned in my post yesterday, I’m not going to be sharing any specific details about my new pup just yet. There are a couple reasons for this. First, while I don’t think this will happen, and we certainly hope it won’t happen, there is a chance that this match doesn’t work out in the next few days and we have to start again. It’s not fair to you, me, the school, or my dog for the whole world to get excited about the new pup and then have to go through it all again. It’s too much scrutiny on everybody, and there are so many reasons why a match might not work out that are no one’s fault. Again, I don’t think this is what will happen, but it is always a possibility. More importantly at this point, I need to be focusing on my new pupper, not on social media. So I’m going to keep specific details about the pup to a minimum for a few days, and I appreciate your patience through this process.

So let’s talk about dog day!

I didn’t get a ton of sleep last night. Too much anticipation and excitement! I did get more sleep than I thought I would though, mostly because I played rain sounds on my phone to block out the sporadically rattling radiator in my room.

We were up at 5:45 today. They wake us up, and call us to different activities, with loudspeakers in all the rooms. The wake up calls come with music. I’ve kept track of the songs for each of my dog days. For Mopsy, it was “Haven’t Met You Yet.” For Neutron, it was “Happy.” For this pup, it was the match theme from the Dating Game, I’m told. I’ll have to look it up to find it and be sure.

We had breakfast at 6:45, then a lecture on dog fears and then handling a new dog.

Our instructors had finalized our matches yesterday afternoon, and while we were attending these lectures, our pups were getting baths over at the kennels.

After the lectures, we went back to our rooms, and we waited. And waited. And waited.

At least that’s what it felt like.

Our instructors were getting the dogs and bringing them to their students’ rooms one by one. There are four different wings of students, and we aren’t grouped together by instructor, so it could be a bit of a process, and you couldn’t guess that they were getting close to you by eavesdropping on when your neighbors were getting their dogs, though occasionally I would hear a knock and a squeal of excitement from one of my hallmates.

It felt like the scenes in a YA dystopian novel, waiting to take some kind of aptitude test or go through some kind of ceremony where you get your career chosen for you or something, except not evil. Excellent, in fact, because puppies! But here I was, sitting on the edge of my bed, so excited and nervous I was seriously wondering if I was going to be sick.

Finally, my instructor knocked on my door, and she brought in my new pup, who I’m going to call Little Buddy.

While I’m not sharing their name yet, I will say that it is a very good name, and it suits them perfectly. They are their name, in the same way my family dog Rocket is in fact a rocket.

Little Buddy was very enthusiastic. They jumped straight up on the bed, the better to lick my ears. I got them settled enough that I could attach my leash to their collar, and my instructor could take her leash off the collar. And then my instructor left us to get acquainted.

I spent the next hour sitting on the floor getting thoroughly inspected by Little Buddy. They sniffed me top to toe, gave me a complete facial, nibbled on my ears and my hair, and even stuck their tongue up my nose, which I admit was a first. I gave them a tour of my dorm room, letting them explore everything, especially their new crate. I held their bone for them while they chewed on it. Finally, they lay down and leaned against my leg while they chewed.

And then my instructor was back. We practiced walking our dogs on leash down to the dining room. It didn’t go that well, honestly. My instructor trained my dog, and Little Buddy is very very attached to my instructor. Little Buddy kept twisting around me to try to get back to her, and I felt like I was twirling my way down the hall. But I stayed patient, and we got to the dining room. We practiced settling Little Buddy at my seat under the table, while my instructor went to get the next student in our group. LIttle Buddy was doing great until our instructor was back, but then Little Buddy was up and at ‘em again.

Once our whole small group was in the dining room, we talked for a bit about the rest of the day and what to expect, then one by one we walked our dogs on leash back to our rooms. We had our mid-morning outside time, we call it “park time.” We’re basically teaching these dogs to relieve themselves on command, and also reminding them of their potty training expertise, given that they’ve spent the past several months in the kennels. Little Buddy circled me for a long time, getting very interested in other dogs and of course my instructor. They even barked at my instructor once, like “hey what are you doing over there! Who is this strange Jameyanne you left me with!” But eventually they did their business and we got out of the cold.

I’m not gonna lie, at this point I was feeling a bit worried. While both my previous dogs were and are very affectionate, especially Neutron who is definitely a velcro boy, I’ve never had a dog be so attached to a trainer that they would twist me around or bark at them. At least not that I remember. But after our mid-morning park time, I actually felt like Little Buddy and I turned a bit of a corner. Something about me giving them water and taking them out and giving them lots of praise when we got back inside, and they were climbing all over me, and also finally let me give them a belly rub.

After lunch, we went downtown, and we did our first trip with our new dogs guiding us in harness. It wasn’t the smoothest first trip I’ve ever had by any means, but after the morning it was way better than I’d been expecting. I wasn’t pirouetting down the sidewalk. In fact, my instructor unclipped her leash and let us go on our own fairly quickly, and there were several blocks where it felt like we were flying. Yes, Little Buddy was still distracted by our instructor, but when I called their focus back to me, they listened. My instructor was very happy at the end of this short trip and assured me that this was perfectly normal, even if it was new to me. And after our first working trip together, when my instructor offered me an arm to guide me back into the training center, for the first time Little Buddy stuck by my side and didn’t charge around me to get to her first. It felt like a real great step.

And things only improved from there. Little Buddy became even more affectionate after I fed them for the first time. They did their business right away at both our evening park times, and they didn’t even try to eat the grooming tools during our grooming lecture. By the end of the day, I was feeling really confident that they were listening to me as we walked around the house on leash. And while it certainly isn’t something I want to encourage, the persistent crying when I disappeared into my bathroom to take a quick shower before bed was a little gratifying. The enthusiastic tail wags that moved the whole crate when I reappeared even more-so. I think we’re well on our way from “who is this Jameyanne?” to “ok this Jameyanne might be okay” to “Jameyanne is a friend.” Hopefully soon we’ll be at “Jameyanne is my person.” My instructor says it will come, and once Little Buddy decides I’m their person, they’ll do anything I want.

It was a big day, with lots of ups and downs, but on the whole I’m feeling good about how it went and where we’re going. I can picture myself back in D.C. just flying down 1st Street on the way to work with this pup at my side. And I can tell they’re going to get along swimmingly with Neutron Star.

Because I want to focus most on the Little Buddy and building our bond, I’m not going to post for a couple days. We’ll be working a fairly straightforward route for a few days, and then on Sunday morning we’ll be doing that route on our own, our first solo. I think I’ll check in on Saturday afternoon, before the solo.

In the meantime, happy dog day friends!

Seeing Eye Day 0: the Storm and the Scramble

Let me set the scene:

It is early afternoon on Saturday. I am in the middle of my biweekly writing group. We are getting into deep discussion of the metaphors in one of our author’s pieces. I’m at my writing desk in my space library, and my Neutron Star is snoring on his bed beside me. Tomorrow, one of my writing group friends is going to come pick him up to take care of him for the next two and a half weeks while I’m at Seeing Eye. Once he’s out of the house, I’m going to pack—I don’t want him to see the suitcase and get nervous. But in the meantime, I need to clean up my whole house so I’m leaving it in a reasonable state. I have just the right amount of food left in the fridge for two days, though I do have a pile of dishes to do because it was one of those weeks. And laundry. Oh, the laundry! But I have plenty of time, and I have a plan. And yes I’m sad that Neutron isn’t going to be with me constantly for the next couple weeks, but it’s okay, I’ve planned for this, and he’s going to have a great time and be well-taken care of at my friend’s place. For right now, I’m in the middle of writing group, and it’s my turn to comment and I need to say something coherent about this excellent short story that I don’t think I understood in the least.

I get a phone call.

I don’t recognize the number, so I send it to voicemail.

About half an hour later, we take a quick break from writing group to use the bathroom, get more tea, and so on.

I’m in the bathroom when I get another call. This one says its from The Seeing Eye.

What? On a Saturday?

Uh oh.

I answer.

My train on Monday morning has been canceled because of the coming snowstorm. They are going to get me on a train tomorrow, Sunday, so I can get to New Jersey ahead of the storm. I’ll spend Sunday night in a hotel, and they’ll pick me up on Monday morning to go to the Seeing Eye’s campus.

They needed to talk to the other students coming from the D.C.-Baltimore area—there are three of us, apparently—and they would get back to me with the exact time of my train.

So here I am, standing in the bathroom feeling a bit like I’ve been hit by a snowball from behind. All my carefully laid plans are in ruins around me. I now have to get Neutron to my friend’s place, pack, do my dishes, do my laundry, and clean up my house all tonight, because I don’t know what time train I’m taking tomorrow. It could be really early (my original train was 7:00 AM on Monday morning, after all). It feels like so much I don’t know where to get started, but I need to get back to writing group anyway.

You’d think, after two years of life being uncertain and full of big changes, that I’d be able to cope with this very small change in plans, leaving just one day earlier to avoid a big snowstorm. But the thing about such a long period of uncertainty, and all the major life changes that have come with it, is that it actually depletes your reserves and your ability to cope. So on Saturday, this small change seemed like an insurmountable obstacle. I didn’t know how I could possibly do it all. And I was not prepared to say goodbye to Neutron today.

I returned to writing group. My friend who is taking Neutron was on the call, so I took a couple minutes to let her know the change and ask if she could take Neutron this evening. She could.

I finished up writing group in a swirl of emotions (very sorry to the two people who got comments from me in this state). Then I started my laundry, put my clean dishes away so I could load the dishwasher, and frantically started gathering up Neutron’s things to send with him to my friend. All the while still calculating everything I had to do and trying to figure out what I could cross off the list.

I heard from Seeing Eye that I would be on a noon train on Sunday, which was not as bad as I’d feared. I could push a few things to the morning.

My friend arrived. We packed up her car, and then I hugged my Neutron boy and got him settled in her car, and she took him home. And I cried like a baby about it for a bit.

I know I know, I’m getting him back in a couple weeks! But this dog has been with me through so much: law school, my move to D.C. and my first real job, the pandemic, my knee surgery, my mom’s illness and death. The idea that he wasn’t in my house with me right now, wagging his tail whenever I looked his way or else filling the room with his big snores and big dreams, was pretty awful.

And to be clear, I know I don’t have it as bad as the people on my train who had to say goodbye to their retired dogs a day early and who aren’t going to be keeping their dogs for whatever reason. I can’t imagine how hard that was.

So once I felt my feelings for a bit, I wrangled myself into getting everything done. Transferred the laundry, did the dishes, gathered up my toiletries and chargers and everything, got the suitcase down, started packing the suitcase, got the clothes out of the dryer and put some of them in the pile to be packed and the rest up in my room to deal with later, put everything into my suitcase, realized I wouldn’t have enough room for all the extra dog stuff I was sure to accumulate, got a bigger suitcase, put everything into that suitcase, ran up and down the stairs a million times in search of those last few things I needed, laid out my clothes for the morning, and fianllly went to bed.

I woke up early Sunday morning and used the time to stop my mail (which I forgot to do on Saturday) and order a new toothbrush and retainer cleaner from Instacart, because I could have sworn I already got those but couldn’t find them anywhere. I was still grabbing random stuff and shoving it into my suitcase. I scrubbed down the kitchen and cleaned the bathrooms and even had a minute to vacuum. Finally, I took out my trash, watered my one and only plant, which will probably thrive in my absence, and off I went.

I chose to brave the metro on a Sunday morning with my heavy suitcase and white cane. A choice to be sure, but I got to Union Station with plenty of time. I even met up with the other student from D.C. so we were able to sit together on the train.

And we were off!

A couple Seeing Eye instructors met us at the train and brought us to our hotel. I’ve been relaxing and catching up on blogging since, with a break to order dinner and talk to my college friends in our weekly Sunday night call. I hear D.C. is basically shut down already. But I haven’t checked to see what the weather is doing here. In about an hour, someone will be back from Seeing Eye to take us to the actual campus, and our training will begin! It still hasn’t really sunk in that I’m here and that I’m going to have a new guide dog in two days.

While I wait for that to sink in, please enjoy this picture, courtesy of my friend who’s watching him, of Neutron happily licking all specks of a celery stick off his nose.