Fly Away Review

Cover for Fly Away by Kristin HannahBack in March, I read Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah. It wasn’t my favorite book in the world, but I was invested enough that I got the sequel, Fly Away, out of the library and read it in May. As I said, I wasn’t a huge fan of Firefly Lane, so the bar for the sequel wasn’t terribly high. Still, I was disappointed. Let me explain.

As with all my reviews, this will be spoiler free, but as with my other reviews of sequels, I might not be able to avoid spoilers from the first book. Fly Away is kind of a strange book in that even though it’s a sequel, it could also stand on its own. So if you want to read Fly Away on its own, stick around, but there will be spoilers from Firefly Lane. At least one very major one, anyway. If you’re interested in reading Firefly Lane without spoilers, this isn’t the review for you. But you can go check out my spoiler-free review for Firefly Lane here.

Fly Away picks up a few years after the end of Firefly Lane. The beginning is pretty cryptic about what’s happened, but since Kate’s death, Tully and Kate’s husband, Johnny have had a falling out; Tully is now addicted to alcohol and narcotics; and Kate’s daughter, Mara, started cutting herself, became a goth and a druggie, ran away from home with a guy, and is basically living on the streets of Portland, Oregon. Then Tully gets in a car accident, and she’s so badly injured that the doctors put her into a medically induced coma. And so everybody comes together around Tully’s hospital bed, and we go back and relive the events of Firefly Lane and then the last four years from Johnny’s point of view, Mara’s point of view, and Tully’s point of view. Tully is having a sort of out-of-body experience and Kate’s spirit is guiding her through her memories. Kind of some magical realism for you there. Tully’s mother comes back into the picture too, and we get the story of her life and Tully’s life from her point of view.

I’m doing a poor job of describing this. I’m sorry. The back cover says the book is about the three women, Tully, Mara, and Tully’s mother Cloud and how they come together, which isn’t much more concrete, and it completely ignores Johnny, who’s a huge part in the book.

As with Firefly Lane, Kristin Hannah’s writing is great. She has such a powerful way of evoking emotions in her scenes. Some of the ambiance of Firefly Lane was lost in this book, because it’s pretty much set in the modern time in a hospital, but the setting is still really strong throughout. I didn’t find the characters to be as compelling as I did in Firefly Lane. Without Kate, everybody just fell apart, and most of the book is them bemoaning the fact that she’s dead. I’m not trying to be unsympathetic or insensitive or anything. I understand that this is a book about grieving. But when it’s coming at you from every character for the whole book, it gets to be too much like whining. Like after a certain point (and I think four years is past that point) you have to pick yourself up and live your life right?

I think part of the problem with the characters, and a big part of my problem with the book, is that it was trying to stand alone as its own book. You could pick up Fly Away and read it without reading Firefly Lane at all. Unfortunately, this means there’s a lot of recap of Firefly Lane, like the first third of the book at least, and it means a lot of the feelings about Kate and her death come off as heavy-handed. If you read Firefly Lane, you grew to know and love her. But if you didn’t read Firefly Lane, then you didn’t get to know her, and her death is only meaningful to the characters. To make up for this, I guess, we get a ton of how wonderful and perfect Kate was and how much everybody loves her. But since I did read Firefly Lane, it felt like Kristin Hannah was trying to force Kate’s wonderfulness down my throat. And I don’t like having anything forced down my throat.

This problem was compounded by the structure of the book. It felt like the book was going in circles. We have a bunch of point of view characters, and we go over the same events from all of their points of view. It’s kind of a cool idea, but it just didn’t work for me. It got redundant.

I will say that I enjoyed Cloud’s section, because I did not expect her story, and she had some great character development. I will say that on top of everything else going on in the book, Cloud’s story, which is tragic, is a little much. Like she could have just had a disagreement with her parents over something stupid. Happens all the time. We didn’t need, well, all that. But finally some character development!

But I wanted to see Tully develop as a character in this book too, because I felt like she didn’t have any character development in Firefly Lane. I do think there is some character development for Tully, but it’s kind of crammed into the ending of the book, and any development she had in the four years between Kate’s death and her car accident, which isn’t much, feels unearned because it’s told in flashbacks.

All this comes down to the fact that I just don’t think the structure of this book worked the way Kristin Hannah intended it to. Or maybe Kristin Hannah’s contemporary stuff just isn’t my cup of tea. But beyond the construction of the book, it was a very heavy book. It felt like we were cramming every bad way to handle grief into one group of characters. This is a grim book. We have addiction, cutting, family estrangement, rape, institutionalization and forced electroshock therapy, and I could keep going. And like I said about the characters grief feeling like whining, it just got to be too much doom and gloom.

Okay, this has become a lot more ranty than I intended it to, so I’m going to stop here. If you’ve gotten this far in my review, you can probably guess that I was not a fan of Fly Away at all. Kristin Hannah’s good writing doesn’t really matter. As I said with Firefly Lane, though, this is not my typical genre of reading, and I’m pretty sure it’s not the genre for me. I know a lot of people who absolutely loved Firefly Lane, and maybe they would like Fly Away too. I hope this review is helpful if you’re deciding to read Fly Away, and as always, if you’ve already read it, I’d love to know what you think.

Us Against You Review

Cover for Us Against You by Fredrik BackmanA few weeks ago, I read Us Against You by Fredrik Backman. This is the sequel to Beartown, which I raved about to you guys earlier this month. In case you couldn’t tell from that post, I absolutely loved, loved, loved Beartown. And I have been dying to get Us Against You out of the library since I finished it. Once I got my hands on it, I plowed right through it in about two days, and that was on top of bar studying. I couldn’t put it down.

And now, finally, I’m passing on my thoughts to you. There won’t be any spoilers for Us Against You in this post, but since Us Against You is a sequel, there may be spoilers for Beartown. I will do my best to keep them to a minimum, but if you haven’t read Beartown yet (and you should go do that right now), you’d be better off checking out that review (over here).

Us Against You picks up right where Beartown left off. Kevin and his family are moving away. Peter has kept his job, for now. Maya is recovering from the trauma of being raped, as much as she can recover from that. But Beartown’s best hockey players have left to join the team in the neighboring town of Hed, and politicians are arguing that the district doesn’t need two hockey teams and they should focus their resources on only one of them. For the people of Beartown, this is taken as a huge threat, because hockey is pretty much the only hope they have as a town. The book really focuses on the growing rivalry between the two towns over pretty much everything, but primarily about hockey.

This was a really good book. The writing was amazing, and there were some really powerful scenes. And I either loved or loved to hate all the characters.

The thing is, for me, the book didn’t have the same power and poignancy as Beartown. I was expecting another slam dunk amazing book. And don’t get me wrong, Us Against You is really great, but it wasn’t Beartown. I’ve been trying to pin down what exactly was missing from this book for the last few weeks, and I’m still not entirely sure why I don’t like it that much (my brain has also been full of contracts and torts, so I’m not at my best for literary analysis right now). The best I’ve come up with is that Us Against You doesn’t feel as focused or pointed as Beartown. Beartown told the story of how the town reacts to Kevin raping Maya, and yes it’s from the whole town’s point of view, but it’s really focused around this single event and its fall-out. Us Against You revolves around the same characters, and some new ones, and many many events as the rivalry between Beartown and Hed builds. As I said, the writing is great, the characters are great, and the feelings are so real, but it felt more scattered than Beartown.

I think another part of my disappointment is that Beartown has such a perfect ending, and I really didn’t need a sequel. And while I was totally willing to stick with these characters and see what happens next, I wanted any sequel to be as amazing as Beartown. A tough act to follow, certainly, and for me, Us Against You didn’t quite measure up.

I want to be one hundred percent clear. I liked Us Against You a lot. It’s a great book. It’s just hard to read it without comparing it to Beartown, and when I compare it to Beartown, I was disappointed. It didn’t add anything to my love of Beartown. In fact, it kind of detracted from my love of Beartown. While I will continue to recommend Beartown to everybody in the world who hasn’t read it yet, but I’m not sure I’d recommend the sequel. For me, Beartown was perfect on its own.

The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle Review

Cover of The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle by Stuart TurtonA couple weeks ago, I read The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle by Stuart Turton. This book had such a cool concept, and a great title, and I really, really wanted to love it. Unfortunately, there were a few things that didn’t quite pull together, and it didn’t work as well for me as I wanted.
The book starts with our protagonist waking up in a forest with no memories. He barely has time to orient himself when he witnesses a murder. He stumbles out of the woods and finds an old manor, where he is apparently been staying because he’s been invited to a homecoming party for Evelyn Hardcastle, the daughter of the wealthy family. (No, the dead woman in the woods is not Evelyn Hardcastle.) As we progress through the book, we learn that our protagonist is trapped in some kind of game, masterminded by this really creepy guy called the plague doctor. Our protagonist will live the same day eight times, each time in the body of another guest of the party. His goal is to solve the murder of Evelyn Hardcastle which will occur at 11:00 PM. If he fails to solve the murder, all his memories will be wiped and he will start again. And there are others like him in the manor house, trying to solve the murder. The first player to solve the murder will be released.
See? Really cool concept, right?
So we follow our protagonist—his name turns out to be Aidan—through the eight days as he gains allies, discovers enemies, tries over and over again to just prevent Evelyn Hardcastle’s murder, gets killed quite a few times himself, and investigates Evelyn’s murder. This was a really fast book, and as I’ve already said, I loved the concept. Stuart Turton also had this writing style that personified everything, and it was really cool, and I liked it a lot.
Now to dive into the problems I have with the book. No spoilers, I promise.
First, each of Aidan’s hosts has both advantages and disadvantages. Some are intelligent but not very physically capable. Some are really fit and great for running around the manor, but they have poor impulse control or they’re violent. And as Aidan progresses through the eight days, his hosts’ natural personalities become harder to control. This is all well and good. But one of his hosts (I think it’s the third or fourth), is a person of size, and the fat shaming in the book at this point is really egregious. I understand the need for some physical description, and Aidan is bound to notice some things more in a body type he’s never experienced before. I also understand the point that this character can’t get around as quickly as some of Aidan’s other hosts. This host turns out to be the smartest of them all, though, and I kind of feel like the author was trying to avoid the fat shaming criticism by giving the host a good quality. But the problem is the descriptions themselves. Every time the character does anything it’s described in great detail, and the tone of and word choice in the description is disgusted. Yes, this character might be smart, but the predominant aspect of his character that we’re meant to walk away with is that he’s grossly fat. And this was not okay with me.
Next, the mystery in this book was really complicated, and there were a lot of characters, and a lot of these characters had very similar names. Like there’s a Harper and a Carver and a Carter, and then there’s a Darby and a Daniel and a Doctor Dicky and a Donald (I think?). It got confusing, to say the least. Now I admit I don’t read a lot of mysteries, but when I do, I like to be able to attempt to solve them on my own. And when we reach the ending, I like to be able to look back and say “ah, I see how this works.” I couldn’t do that with this book. We just followed Aidan as he solved the mystery, and then he explained it to us, and even with his explanation I don’t know how he figured it out. This left me feeling kind of disappointed.
Finally, it’s implied throughout the book that Aidan has been trying to solve Evelyn Hardcastle’s murder for years and has been through these eight days many, many times. And each time, even though he loses his memories when it’s over, he grows as a character. It is revealed at the end what the point of the game is, and I actually think it’s a really cool concept. The problem is all of Aidan’s, and everyone else’s, character development happened before the book started, and we’re just seeing the end point, rather than a complete arc. We can’t appreciate how Aidan has grown and changed over the course of the book, because when the book starts he has pretty much finished his growing and changing and now he’s just putting the pieces together.
For me, The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle had a really cool concept some great writing and a pretty solid plot. But the ending really didn’t work for me, and that dragged the rest of the book down.
I know a lot of people really like this book, so as always take my thoughts with a grain of salt. You know the kinds of books you like to read. If you give it a try I’d love to know what you think, and if you’ve already read it, do you agree with me? Or do I just not understand mysteries?

Akata Witch Review

Hello from the land of bar prep, where life has basically become study, eat, sleep, not necessarily in that order. Last weekend at my five-year Kenyon reunion, when I was trying to explain the state of my life to my friends, I accidentally said “I’m a law student studying for the bar. I eat when I’m tired and sleep when I’m hungry.” Yes it’s a funny mix-up, but it’s actually kind of true.

The studying is going well, I think. None of it is particularly difficult—if only all my law school courses had been so clear—but there’s a lot of it. At least that was my outlook until I got my first graded essay back today. Oof. I thought I knew how to write.

I graduated last week too. I’m officially a J.D. I’m excited, but it’s hard to tell because I eat when I’m tired and sleep when I’m hungry and I seem to always be tired and hungry now.

I’m also managing to squeeze in some reading and writing, though less than I would like and probably still more than I should be doing. The bar studying has meant I’ve gotten behind on book reviews. I’m currently reading the second Stormlight Archive book, and that will take me a while and give me time to catch up this week before posting my reading roundup post for May.

Cover of Akata Witch by Nnedi OkoraforA couple weeks ago, I read Akata Witch by Nnedi Okorafor. This was actually a reread for me, because I read this book back in November or December. The library finally has the sequel, and since I’m supposed to be spending this time rereading books, I thought this was a good place to start.

Sunny is Nigerian, but she was raised in New York until she was nine, and her parents decided to move the family back to Nigeria. Sunny is also an albino, and a soccer prodegy, though she can’t play much because she can’t be outside in direct sunlight. At the start of the book, she’s twelve years old and having social problems at school, because she doesn’t fit in in any way. And on top of that, she’s seeing visions of the end of the world in candle flames, which is just weird, right? Then she meets Orlu, Chichi, and Sasha, and they introduce her to her magical heritage. Sunny, and her new friends, are what are called Leopard People. They belong to a secret culture that practices juju. Sunny’s new friends introduce her to her new world and new powers. They study their magic, have adventures, investigate Sunny’s grandmother—who they think was also a Leopard Person—and get into plenty of trouble. And then they are tasked with finding and stopping a serial killer who has been kidnapping and murdering children in the area as part of a ritual to bring about the end of the world.

When I read this book back in December, I was a little indecisive about how I felt about it. I enjoyed it, definitely, because I put it on my 2018 favorites list. But I also thought it was a bit all over the place in terms of both content and tone, and I didn’t like the treatment of people with disabilities in this world. But this time around, I liked the book much more. Knowing where everything was going helped fit all the pieces together, and it worked really well. I love how down to earth the characters are, and that discovering her magical powers isn’t all fun and games for Sunny. Basically, this book has all the qualities of middle grade fantasy that I love, and now I’m dying to read the sequel.

The treatment of characters with disabilities still bothers me, though. The book makes a big deal about the problem of stereotypes of people with disabilities as people who have secret powers.  and yes, okay, calling attention to a stereotype and saying this is not what’s going on here is cool and important. But you can’t say “this is not what’s going on here” and then it is what’s going on here. Akata Witch still does the thing where if you are a Leopard Person, and you have a disability, you are basically superpowered above everyone else because you have natural abilities that you can use without the ordinary tools of Juju. Sunny, an albino, can turn invisible. Orlu, who’s dyslexic, can intuitively undo any Juju he comes across. This means that in this culture, people with disabilities are celebrated, but it also means that the book is actively fulfilling the stereotype it says isn’t true. And beyond that, once you unlock your Leopard Person powers, your disability disappears. Orlu is no longer dyslexic (would love to know how they explain that to the public school). Sunny can go out in direct sunlight without fear of being burned. And if you don’t already know how I feel about characters with magic or superpowers or cool technology that negates their disability, go check out this post. All this was a pretty small part of the book, and it didn’t really affect how much I liked the book. But it was definitely an issue, and I wanted to flag it.

On the whole, though, this was a fun book with just the right amount of adventure and danger for me, and I’m looking forward to getting my hands on the sequel.

So, have you read Akata Witch? What did you think?

Juris Dog-Torate

Neutron in profile from his shoulder up, wearing his graduation cap and gownHi! Hi hi hi! It’s Neutron Star again! My person is studying for the bar, so I’m here to tell you about my hat. Do you like my hat? It wasn’t very comfortable, but everybody says I was the most handsome.

Yes, the hat means what you think it means. This week, I graduated from Harvard Paw School with my Juris Dog-torate. My person and I got up bright and early on Thursday morning (actually it was just early, nothing bright about it, because the sun wasn’t awake yet), and we got dressed in our giant robes and my person helped me with my hat, and we went over to school. We had to stand around a lot, and then we had to sit, and then stand some more, and lots of people were talking. My person got a plastic hammer that I wanted to chew. I was disappointed that it didn’t squeak. Jameyanne grinning in her cap and gown and waving a plastic gavel There was a bit where everybody stood up and waved the hammers in the air and screamed like crazy.

Then more sitting and listening and trying to be patient, but there wasn’t a lot of room. My person said I was a good boy and gave me lots of snuggles though. Jameyanne and Neutron, both in graduation regalia, snuggling on the grass

Finally, we lined up with all the people we’ve had classes with, and they said my person’s name, and we walked across the stage and got my person’s diploma. Jameyanne smiling in her cap and gown and holding her diploma

There was no diploma for me, but I don’t need a piece of paper. I had the hat.

There were a lot of people and a lot of new smells and the hat was very distracting because it was very handsome, even though it kept slipping. But I did my job like a superstar and guided my person all over. And I only tried to eat her tassel a couple times.

I know I know. But it was just so floppy and dangly and I had to try.

I was sad that Mopsy couldn’t come, because she was with our person for the first year of paw school, but she doesn’t like crowds anymore, so she decided to stay home with our other buddy, Rocket.

I’m also sad because even though school is over and we’re all graduated and everything, my person is still studying all the time. I guess there’s this big exam called the bar that she has to pass before we can go to work as lawyers, so there’s going to be a lot of sitting this summer. So my job this summer will be to bring my person plenty of balls and bones and snuggles and make sure she doesn’t work too hard and takes me for walks, because I need to stay in shape for all the adventures coming this fall.

Firefly Lane Review

Cover of Firefly Lane by Kristin HannahBack in March, I read Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah. This was the first book I read for the National Federation of the Blind Cambridge Chapter book club I joined/helped form. Actually so far it’s the only book I’ve read for that book club because I missed April’s meeting, and I’m going to miss May’s because of graduation. I talked about this book back in my March roundup post, but two months later, I still have some pretty strong feelings about this book, and I just got the sequel out of the library, so I wanted to share my thoughts on this book so that I can talk about the sequel with you all next week.

A quick disclaimer. This book is women’s fiction. Women’s fiction is not my genre. I almost invariably get frustrated and angry with it. So if you generally like women’s fiction, take my opinions with a handful of salt.

A few years ago, I read The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah, and I adored it. It may be one of my all time favorite books, and I’m considering including it in my summer rereadathon. The Nightingale is an absolutely fabulously incredible book, and if you haven’t read it you need to. I tell you this because you need to read it and I also want to explain that I went into Firefly Lane with really high expectations. And I was disappointed.

Firefly Lane tells the story of Kate and Tully, starting when they become friends at fourteen and following them through thirty years of friendship, betrayal, and life in general. Kate comes from a pretty normal, stable home, but she’s a bit of a geek and is having social trouble at school. Tully comes from a broken home, but she’s super popular, so it’s an unlikely friendship, but it’s a strong and close friendship. Tully is definitely the dominant one in the friendship, controlling a lot of what the girls do—and later what they do as college students and then adult women—and Kate goes along with it all. And then, of course, one of them betrays the other.

The best part of the book was the writing. Kristin Hannah is a great writer, and that was 100% reflected in this book. The scenes were vivid, and the emotions were raw. And you could feel the time period in the ambiance of the book, which is one of my favorite things.

I have a number of problems with the book, but my biggest problem is that it felt very tropy, and so it was very predictable. No, I didn’t predict exactly what was going to happen from the very start of the book, but I had a good idea of what was coming before it did, and nothing that did happen was a surprise. And not in a good way. This was compounded by the fact that neither of the girls changed as characters over the course of the book, particularly with their interactions with each other. Now I understand that with certain people, particularly childhood friends, you might always behave a certain way, but in fiction, we expect some character development, and we never see it in this book. Even in the ending, after everything, the characters are still behaving exactly the way they were in the beginning. Kate is still totally accepting of and accommodating to Tully’s flaws. Tully is still running away and also dominating everything.

I am willing to keep an open mind about this going into the sequel, which picks up where the ending left off. Maybe we will see some character development after what happened in the end of Firefly Lane. If that’s the case, it will probably have a redeeming effect on this book. I’ll let you know.

I want to talk briefly about the ending of this book. There’s a betrayal, Kate and Tully get mad at each other, and then a tragedy brings them back together again as friends. I’m not spoiling anything, all that’s on the back cover of the book. The tragedy is possibly the most clichéd thing in the book. I’m not going to say what it is, but you can probably guess. Again, it wasn’t a surprise, but I admit I was balling my eyes out by the end, so it did pack an emotional punch. In the author’s note at the end of the book, Kristin Hannah talks about this same tragedy happening in her own family, and while I completely understand the need to write about it, it felt shoehorned into the book (especially so because it came from a personal experience). I’m not trying to diminish what happened to Kristin Hannah’s family by any means, but I think her personal experience with this aspect of the book hampered the ending of Firefly Lane.

This is a lot of negative commentary on this book, and I could keep ranting about it, but I want to emphasize again that this is just my opinion, and I want you to be able to form your own opinion, if you haven’t already. And as I said before, the writing in this book is great, and I was emotionally invested in the characters, and I do want to read the sequel. So while there’s plenty about this book that didn’t work for me, it isn’t terrible, and if you’re a fan of women’s fiction, this may be just the book for you. In fact, I know a lot of people who really, really liked it.

I have the sequel out from the library now, so I’ll probably be reading that in the next couple weeks, and I’ll be back to talk about what I think then. If you haven’t read Firefly Lane, I hope this review is helpful to you deciding if you want to give it a try. And if you do read it, or if you’ve already read it, I’d love to know what you think.

The Summer Before the War Review

I’m on Day Four of studying for the bar exam. At first I thought it wasn’t so bad. Then I made the mistake of looking ahead at the rest of the week, and now I just want to curl up in bed and cry.

Rule number one for bar prep: Don’t look ahead.

Rule number two: Don’t wake up late and then study until midnight in a desperate attempt to stay on top of things. You will very quickly feel like you can’t possibly go on.

The moral of the story, I seriously need to recalibrate my life yesterday.

But enough about the bar.

Cover of The Summer Before the War by Helen SimonsonLast week, before I started all this studying, I read The Summer Before the War by Helen Simonson, and I want to talk about it with you.

The Summer Before the War follows a young woman, Beatrice, who moves to a small town in the British countryside in the summer of 1914. Her father has just died, and she has a job teaching Latin at the town’s grammar school. A woman teaches French and another woman teaches literature at the school, but apparently it’s unheard of that a woman would teach Latin. So Beatrice faces a few challenges to actually secure her job, and she’s sucked into the politics of this little town. But then World War I begins, Belgian refugees arrive, and Beatrice’s job becomes the least of anyone’s concerns.

This book was a bit of a departure from the usual for me. As you know, I usually read World War II books. I know very little about World War I beyond what I remember from high school history. I might have enjoyed this book more had I known more about the history, but I’m not sure. And whether I knew the history or not, the book just didn’t work for me that well.

Firstly, I found it to be very slow, with a lot of characters, and far too many tea parties. It wasn’t all bad, certainly. There were some moments that were great fun, and I found all the characters to be distinct and vivid, even though there were a ton of them. The writing was good too. And things did pick up in the last third of the book. By the time I finished, I was invested in the plot and the characters, but unfortunately I found it to be very predictable, and I knew everything that was going to happen before it did. Also, while the book followed multiple characters, it was mainly about Beatrice, but in the last bit, it switched over to another character’s point of view and we sort of lost Beatrice until the very end, and that didn’t really work for me.

In the end, this was an interesting book, but I’m not sure I would recommend it. It just didn’t work for me the way I wanted it to. I do hope to read more World War I books, because now I would like to know more about the time period. So if you have favorite World War I books, recommend away. And if you’ve read The Summer Before the War, I would love to discuss it more with you.

Let the Great Bar Prep Rereadathon Begin!

Friends, I have done it. Finals are over, and I lived to talk about it. Graduation isn’t for a couple of weeks, and grades haven’t come out yet, but the exams are behind me.

And today, I embarked on my super exciting summer plans: studying for the bar!

I was being sarcastic there. It’s kind of the opposite of super exciting.

Okay, the first day wasn’t so bad. In fact, I’m sitting here wondering why my first year contracts professor couldn’t explain it all like they do in my bar prep course, because it makes so much more sense this time around. I think the hardest thing will be studying for long hours every day until the bar. It’s a marathon, and it’s going to take a lot out of me. Don’t be surprised if I get progressively crankier, or if I just drop off this blog altogether for a bit.

So it’s time to fall back on my favorite law school coping mechanisms. Reading and writing. I’m still working on revisions for my middle grade fantasy novel, and I’m going to keep that up. My goal is to work on that a little every day so that I don’t go crazy. I’m also going to keep on reading, as usual. Since I have a lot going on with my brain right now, and I need to be retaining a lot of other information, I’m planning to do a lot of rereading this summer.

That being said, I just got like five books out of the library that I’ve been waiting for, so I will still be reading some new books too, but once I’m through those I will definitely start rereading some old favorites.

I haven’t totally decided on what I want to reread. Not Harry Potter, because I just did that. And I’m not allowed to reread Tamora Pierce’s Circle of Magic books until I finish my revisions. I love the Circle books, and I would love to reread them, but they were a big part of the inspiration for my middle grade fantasy book, and at this point, I don’t want them to accidentally worm their way into my book. I probably will reread them again soon, but not until my revisions are done.

I might reread Tamora Pierce’s Tortoll books again, though, because it’s been a while, and I’ve been dying to reread at least her Immortals series ever since i read Tempests and Slaughter last year. I’m also considering revisiting Catherine Valente’s Fairyland books, The Lunar Chronicles, The Healing Wars, and some other favorites. I still plan to post reviews of what I read, and I’m excited to share my thoughts with you on these books I love so much.

For me, rereading is like settling in for a chat with an old friend, or like a large helping of your favorite comfort food. At the same time, every time I reread, I experience the book differently, because I’ve changed as a person and as a reader. I think rereading is perfect for the summer I have ahead of me, and I’m excited to dive in.

So what about you? Do you reread books? What are the favorites you go back to when things get stressful? Any recommendations for favorites I might want to revisit this summer? Let’s chat in the comments.

And if you’re studying for the bar this summer too, good luck. We got this.

Jameyanne Rereads Harry Potter 2019 Edition: Half-Blood Prince and Deathly Hallows

Last week, I finished Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, completing this year’s reread of the Harry Potter series. I have so enjoyed this reread, as I enjoy it every year, but I have particularly enjoyed writing down all my thoughts as I read the books and sharing those thoughts with you. I hope you’ve enjoyed reading them.

If you’re just joining in now, you can find my thoughts on Sorcerer’s Stone and Chamber of Secrets here and Prisoner of Azkaban, Goblet of Fire, and Order of the Phoenix here.

So here are my random thoughts on the last two books in the series. As always, there will be spoilers, so if you haven’t read the books and don’t want to be spoiled, stop reading now.

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

I really love the opening chapter of this book, “The Other Minister.” It not only does an excellent job of catching the reader up on what has happened since Voldemort revealed himself at the ministry at the end of Order of the Phoenix and how the whole world has changed since then, but it also is just a great Muggle perspective of the wizarding world we have become so accustomed to by now. It’s a really great opening to the book.

“Spinner’s End” is also a great chapter, and I think it’s interesting whether you know or do not know the truth about Snape. The first time I read it, I definitely took it as confirmation of Snape actually being on Voldemort’s side, which I think was a big part of the point. Rereading it now that I know all the truth, it’s really cool to see how well Snape acts, particularly when you consider that Wormtail is living with him, and he must hate Wormtail as much as he hated Sirius (it was Wormtail, really, who got Lily killed after all). I do wonder about Wormtail’s presence though. He isn’t important to the rest of the plot of this book, so I kind of feel like he’s there to remind the reader that he exists before he reappears in the seventh book.

I love how everything about this book exudes a darker tone and how Harry and his friends are treated much more like adults. Like when Harry first arrives at the Burrow, the conversation he has with Molly Weasley while he’s eating soup is a much more adult conversation than any in previous books. Same goes for his feeling that he can confide his suspicions about Malfoy to Arthur. We see it in how Diagen Alley has changed too, and that everything at Hogwarts seems more tense. Poor Hannah Abbott!

This brings me to the point about the sixth book that annoys me. Harry just becomes obsessed with Draco Malfoy and what he’s up to, to the exclusion of everything else. For one thing, it feels like a repeat of the first book when they’re convinced that Snape is trying to steal the sorcerer’s stone, except this time there’s barely any proof that Malfoy is up to anything bad, at least for a good chunk of the book. And the problem isn’t so much that Harry is obsessed. The problem is that he’s right. It just irks me.

Harry also becomes an annoying person around the Half-Blood Prince’s potions book, and he winds up doing a lot of things that feel totally outside his character. Like in Order of the Phoenix he is really upset when he sees how his father bullied Snape and hears that his father walked around Hogwarts jinxing people who annoyed him. And in this book, Harry is totally fine with trying out the Prince’s pretty gruesome spells on Crabbe and Filch, just because he can. This is actually kind of an interesting point, because as annoying as I find it, it’s kind of a cool point to show how much Harry trusts Snape (the book actually makes this point at the end).

If Malfoy wasn’t in Hogsmeade because he was in detention, how did he put Madam Rosmerta under the imperius curse? I assume he used an accomplice, like Harry said when he, Ron, and Hermione are debating the necklace incident. But a lot of the specifics of how malfoy’s plan came together get answered in the end, and this doesn’t.

Another thing that annoys me about this book is that while it’s cool to learn about Voldemort’s past, it isn’t really an interesting backstory. He’s a sociopath. He’s been a sociopath for forever. Personally,I prefer villains who have a reason—even a bad reason—for being villains. But maybe that’s just me. That being said, eleven-year-old Voldemort is quite creepy.

Okay, so while I like a lot of the elements of this book, it doesn’t feel as well put together as the earlier books in the series, particularly in the middle. It’s just kind of messy.

I appreciate that Dumbledore gives Harry a talking to about not getting the memory. He deserved that one hundred percent.

Dumbledore and Voldemort’s meeting is really fascinating.

If I wrote fanfic, I would most definitely write the Slughorn Christmas Party between Tom Riddle leaving school and Voldemort showing his true colors in which it’s obvious to Dumbledore that he’s a bad guy, but they’ve both been invited and have to make civil conversation while actually hating each other.

So if I have my timeline right, which I may not, the defense against the dark arts job has been jinxed for like forty years? Wow.

Ugh I hate that Harry uses sectumsempra on Malfoy. I like it for the story, but I hate it for Harry. It makes me so uncomfortable and angry with him, which is totally the point.

A lot of people hate on the Harry and Ginny romantic pairing. I don’t hate it, but I don’t absolutely love it either. I think part of the reason why is that we don’t spend a lot of time with them as a couple to really get attached to it and be upset when Harry breaks it off to protect her. There’s also a lot of telling and not showing that happens both with the buildup to the relationship and the relationship itself. I know having characters be happy is hard to write, but instead of just saying over and over again that Harry is happier than he’s been in a while, show us. And while Ginny is certainly more developed in the books than the movies, she’s still always kept outside important things like knowledge about the prophecy and the horcruxes, and that all stops me from really getting behind their relationship.

I don’t really like Harry exploding at Dumbledore about Snape being the one who told Voldemort about the prophecy. It makes complete sense based on everything we know about Harry and Snape, but hasn’t he exploded at Dumbledore enough for the series?

I think after this reread, I would say Half-Blood Prince is probably my least favorite of the books, for all the reasons I’ve mentioned so far. I just don’t like hanging out with Harry as much when he’s so obsessive, I don’t like that he’s right, I think the plot is in general weaker, and I wish Voldemort’s backstory was more interesting and not just Voldemort was born evil and just became more evil.

That being said, the climax of this book is awesome and creepy and then terrifying and then heartbreaking, and it leads into the seventh book so well.

Speaking of, it’s a good thing none of the horcruxes they track down in the seventh book are protected the way the cave is. If they had to search through thin air for magic like Dumbledore does, they would never get there.

I know Dumbledore drinking the potion is more dramatic, but seriously would it be against Voldemort’s cave rules to fill the cup with potion and just dump it on the ground or vanish it once it’s in the cup or whatever?

Malfoy must be good at the imperius curse to keep Rosmerta acting so normally all the time. Harry doesn’t do so well himself in the seventh book.

This must be a really interesting book from Dumbledore’s perspective, because he spent a lot of time this year trying to keep Harry off Malfoy and Snape’s trail—not that he does a very good job of it—but still.

This is another one of those endings where I hope every time that it will be different.

The end of this book is a little like a recap of the whole series, which works really well as a lead into the seventh book, which ditches the school-year formula the first six books have followed.

And I just love that Ron and Hermione continue to stand with Harry all the way.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

The first chapter of this book is so, so creepy. It sets the tone well. And I love how from then on, things just take off and don’t stop.

I always wondered why Harry, Ron, and Hermione didn’t bring at least one cauldron with them. Like it wouldn’t have been that farfetched that they would need to make some potions.

HEDWIG!!!! Why? I mean, I know why, don’t answer that. But it makes me so, so sad! Poor Hedwig!

And Moody! It’s wild how so much of us getting attached to Moody happened in the fourth book when he wasn’t Moody. But losing him is still just so awful!

So when Hermione is sorting books, she puts Numerology and Grammatica on one pile of books and The Rise and Fall of the Dark Arts on the other, and I can’t figure out which pile she put which on. Again, I wish I knew more about arithmancy. Also why in the world is she indecisive about Break with a Banshee? Trash it already.

Not a big deal but I always wondered what happened to Crookshanks and Pigwidgeon when the three go off on their quest for horcruxes.

I would love to know Mrs. Weasley’s feelings on Harry and Ginny and the fact that they were dating and are now broken up.

I love how J. K. Rowling keeps the tension up through the scenes at the Burrow and on to the wedding and the aftermath. Things just continue to be really tense even when they’re in Grimauld Place trying to find the locket. And of course the sequence at the Ministry is just great.

It’s never quite clear to me if the reason the Death Eaters are hanging out outside Grimauld Place is because they know Harry owns the house or because they’ve been saying Voldemort’s name. You’d think there would be more out there if it was because they were saying the name. Because they would know for sure that they were in there.

Also when did Ron start saying Voldemort’s name? He was always so strongly against it, and all of a sudden he’s saying it.

Kreacher’s tale is horrifying.

I’m really curious why any muggle borns would turn themselves in to the Ministry for questioning. Like they at least should be aware of muggle history, right? Whatever the reason, the interrogation of muggleborns scene is really scary.

I really hope the Cattermoles made it out of the Ministry. I want to know what happened to them.

Also, I’m curious if Mr.Weasley puts two and two together and realizes that he wasn’t talking to Runcorn once he knows that there were intruders in the Ministry.

And of course, Umbridge is the worst.

The thing I love about the sequence in the Ministry is that it calls back so much to the fifth book. It’s yet another example of just how well put-together these books are.

A week or so ago, while we were playing trivia, I was talking with my friends about wizarding religion. Wizards celebrate Christmas, but it’s very secular. There is Easter break, but there isn’t any celebration of Easter beyond Mrs. Weasley sending the kids Easter eggs. Usually the Easter holidays is the time when the schoolwork ramps up, and we get into the climax of the book. But it was never religious. Students didn’t usually go home (Deathly Hallows is the exception and who can blame them), and there wasn’t even Easter dinner at Hogwarts. So there really isn’t a lot of religion in the wizarding world. There’s possibly some religion at Dumbledore’s funeral and at Bill and Fleur’s wedding, but the line between magical ceremonies and religious ceremonies is blurry. On the other hand, when Harry buries Moody’s eye, he marks the tree with a cross. I wonder if that’s a wizarding thing or if it’s because of Harry’s muggle upbringing.

And now we come to the point that seems most contentious, at least in my circle of Harry Potter fans: the time they spend in the tent. I know so many people who dislike this book for this segment, even call it Harry Potter and the Neverending Camping Trip. I admit that things can be a bit slow at this point in the book, but I don’t dislike it. The truth is they don’t know where the other horcruxes are, they’re in real danger all the time, they’re struggling to find food, and feeling isolated from the rest of the wizarding world and abandoned by Dumbledore. This is really important to their journey throughout the rest of the book. Cutting away from Harry’s point of view at this point and showing us what’s going on in the rest of the wizarding world wouldn’t, as a couple of friends think, solve the problem. For one thing, it feels like a cheat to get away from a part of the book that I imagine was difficult to write and certainly isn’t the easiest to get through. We’ve never left Harry’s point of view in the middle of the book before except in his visions of Voldemort, which are still his point of view, and those couple of times in the first book when we got Ron’s and Hermione’s perspectives during the quidditch games for some reason. So cutting away from Harry now would feel unnatural, and personally it would have annoyed me as a reader. Second, and I’ve expressed this view before, I hate it when the reader knows things that the main characters don’t—unless there’s some deliberate dramatic irony thing going on. It would make it much harder to connect with Harry and his feelings of isolation and abandonment if we, the readers, know what’s going on out there. So no, the tent isn’t the best part of the book, , but it’s an important part of the book. Rant over.

Actually, not quite over, because this is the part where I tell you of my vision of a Netflix original adaptation of the Harry Potter books. I think in that form, we could see more of the wider wizarding world throughout the course of the whole story and it would feel much more natural than it would in the books. Also, like, Netflix originals are so good I would love to see them adapt the Harry Potter books.

I’m so mad at Ron for leaving, but it feels totally natural. Remember Goblet of Fire?

Okay, so they can’t make good fooc out of nothing, but they can visit supermarkets and they have a bag of holding. So why don’t they buy enough food to last a while? Like once they realize this is a problem, they should plan ahead.

The Godric’s Hollow sequence is great every time. So many feelings. So terrifying.

I get that Harry has doubts about Dumbledore, but I’m always surprised that the source of those doubts is Rita Skeeter, after how she twisted the truth about Harry, Hermione, and Hagrid back in Goblet of Fire. Okay, so some of what Rita wrote about was true, like Hagrid was half-giant, and Harry’s scar did hurt him, but most of it was completely made up or so twisted it was unrecognizable. Hermione reminds Harry of this a couple times when they’re talking about Dumbledore, but it never occurs to Harry that Rita Skeeter might just be wrong. Okay so there’s no skating around the for-the–greater-good letter between Dumbledore and Grindlewald, but on the other hand who’s to say Rita Skeeter couldn’t fake that too? I’m just saying while I understand that Harry has doubts about Dumbledore throughout the course of this book, and it’s perfectly natural and a really good character journey for him, I wish he didn’t accept Rita Skeeter’s version of events so readily.

Ron’s totably right. Why didn’t Harry take the horcrux off before diving into the pond? It seems like a stupid move given that they know the horcrux can be sort of alive at times. A sentence explanation could solve this problem.

I like the bits when both Harry and Hermione express frustration with their new wands, because they don’t work right. Only aside from complaining, they generaally seem to do fine with them.

Xenophilius Lovegood is heartbreaking. He just wants to save Luna. Also awful because he betrays Harry but still heartbreaking.

Not gonna lie, I would love to see the scene when the Death Eaters take Luna off the Hogwarts Express. Was the train stopped halfway back to London? Do Ginny and Neville and other members of Dumbledore’s Army put up a fight? Or did the Death Eaters wait until they got to Kings Cross and grab her on the platform or even out in the muggle station when she was alone?

Of all the encounters they’ve had with Death Eaters so far, the sequence at Malfoy Manor is by far the most terrifying.

DOBBY!!! NO!!! I cry every time, particularly when Harry writes “Here lies Dobby, a free elf” on the headstone. I’m crying now just writing about it. Poor Dobby!

Harry says that the Death Eaters will know that Hermione snapped his wand by using priori incantatem, and okay, maybe, but that was months ago, and she’s been doing that set of protective spells every day since (or almost every day, since harry complains his wand doesn’t work as well). Would the Death Eaters really have the patience to wade back through all that magic to get there? I feel like they should be more worried about the fact that the Death Eaters will know what their protective spells are. The Death Eaters could certainly deduce that Harry doesn’t have the phoenix feather wand anymore, given that none of the wands taken from Harry, Ron, and Hermione match Olivander’s description.

Once you hit Gringotts in this book, it’s sort of the point of no return. You can’t stop.

I love how so much of the Gringotts break-in harkens back to the earlier books, particularly the first book when everything was so happy and innocent.

I love the scene in the room of requirement. It really ties everything together so nicely. And it’s really fun seeing everyone back together.

The battle of Hogwarts is the most epic.

FRED!!!

I don’t know why but the image of Professor Trelawney throwing crystal balls at Death Eaters has always been really funny to me.

I feel silly, but this is the first time when I actually realized the moment when Ron looks for Crookshanks to stop the whomping willow so they can get through to the shrieking shack and Hermione says “Are you a wizard or what?” is a callback to the moment when Hermione panics over the devil’s snare in the first book and looks for wood to start a fire and Ron says “Are you a witch or what?” I love it!

Lupin! Tonks! Nooo!

The sequence of Snape’s memories is probably one of my favorite sequences in the whole series. I know there’s a lot of debate around this. Snape is a horrible, abusive person to Harry, and he should in no way be forgiven for that. I don’t get behind the idea that he was a stalker to Lily. I read this chapter as he genuinely loved her. And it’s all just so sad!

Pause for a small anecdote: When these books were first coming out, it always took almost a month for the Braille version to be printed and shipped after the print version had come out. So I had the fourth, fifth, and sixth books spoiled for me (when I started the series, the first three had already been published). For the seventh book, National Braille Press was able to work things out with the publisher so they could have an advance copy and the Braille book was on my doorstep by 10:00 AM of release day. Still, my older brother got it at midnight, so by noon or 1:00 or something, he was already finished, and I was still in the beginning middle when he called me. Now we’d been having a longstanding debate about whether Harry was going to die or not. My older brother was positive Harry was going to die. I vehemently objected to the idea, and I used the fact that Voldemort took Harry’s blood as proof. So my older brother calls me up on Deathly Hallows release day, and he’s finished the book, and I haven’t, and all I want is to discover it myself and not be spoiled. And he says, “Jameyanne, we were both right.” And before he could say more I hung up. So I got through Deathly Hallows without being spoiled, and yes, we were both right.

Colin!

Actually I have something to say about Colin dying beyond just wailing. I’ve mentioned this before in other posts, but i feel like by the time we get to Colin, it’s just too much, and it doesn’t matter, and it should. I don’t know. Like this all should be messy and people should die, because otherwise it doesn’t mean anything, and it’s unrealistic if it’s all so clean and neat, but it just feels like too much death around this point (though admittedly that depends on the mood I’m in when I’m reading this particular sequence).

Harry’s walk into the forest is just so tense and full of feelings.

The quote “Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?” has always been one of my favorites in the series. But then again, I’m one of those people with whole worlds in my head, and I totally approve of the idea that they are still real.

There are just so many amazing epic moments after Harry comes back. Neville! Oh Neville is just great! And Molly is amazing!

Just one question though, how does Bellatrix know that Fred is dead? She wasn’t there. Is there like some running Death Eater score board or something we don’t know about?

The first time I read this, I wished for a more climactic duel between Harry and Voldemort. Now I think it’s perfect. Harry honestly doesn’t have the skill to battle Voldemort, Voldemort isn’t interested in  a protracted fight, and Harry taunting Voldemort with what he knows and Voldemort doesn’t understand is all amazing. Particularly when you contrast this with all Harry’s previous encounters with Voldemort, when he’s always been on the defensive and been terrified. It’s just a great moment of realizing the character development.

Voldemort referring to himself in the third person is always just kind of funny to me. Like it’s not a funny scene at all, but whenever Voldemort says something like “Lord Voldemort is happy,” or “Lord Voldemort is angry,” or “how can you dream of knowing more than Lord Voldemort” (these are not exact quotes), I crack up.

Oh I just love this ending! All of it! But especially Peeves!

I know a lot of people hate the epilogue. But I like it.

Every time I finish this series, I always need to take some time to mourn the fact that it’s over. But I’ll always be able to go back and reread them again next year.

Beartown Review

Cover of Beartown by Fredrik BackmanLast month, I read Beartown by Fredrik Backman. I read And Every Morning The Way Home Gets Longer and Longer by Fredrik Backman at the end of last year, and I absolutely adored it, so when a book reviewer I like on YouTube recommended this one, I was excited to give it a try. And I was not disappointed. Beartown may be one of my favorites from the whole year so far, and since I’m inching up on the library waiting list for the sequel, I wanted to tell you about it.

Beartown is a dying town in the middle of the forest. The industry has moved away, and they’re slowly losing ground to the trees. Things aren’t developing. Their only hope of survival as a town is their junior hockey team, which is poised to win national semifinals. If they win the national finals, then the hockey league might invest in a school in their town and revitalize everything. But at the after party for the semifinals game, the star hockey player violently rapes the team manager’s fifteen-year-old daughter. We’re not talking about an iffy situation where there’s any question of consent here. It’s violent.

The book is told from the point of view of the town, or rather, all the key townspeople involved in hockey and this particular event, as they deal with the consequences of the rape. The reactions are what you would expect. Half the town villifies the girl, and the other half supports her. But the way this is written, and the focus on the consequences for the town of this one act, is so incredibly well-done.

A quick warning, which you’ve probably figured out, this book is pretty heavy. It deals with rape, and it doesn’t shy away from it. There are some graphic scenes. If that’s a problem, this might not be the book for you.

But this was an absolutely fabulous book. The writing was stellar and vivid and so real. And it dealt with these really difficult issues with sensitivity and realism. Things built up so well, and the tension got so thick it was oppressive. I won’t spoil anything, but the ending was exactly what I wanted it to be. I actually stayed up all night reading this one because once I hit the halfway point of the book, I couldn’t put it down. As I said, this is one of my favorites of 2019 so far, and even though I read it over a month ago, I can’t get it out of my head (in a good way).

The only quibble I have with this book, and only a law student or lawyer would take issue with this, is that it is totally unrealistic for the girl’s mother, who’s an attorney, to be representing her in the case against the hockey player. It just wouldn’t happen. But honestly that’s a small thing and I can ignore it because it lends so many feelings to the story.

Like I said, there is a sequel, and I am really excited to read it, but the book could stand alone quite well (and there’s a distinct possibility that it should. I’ll let you know.).

But really I can’t say enough good things about this book. I never thought I would love a book that is so centered on hockey, but I do. It’s an amazing story, and I feel like everyone should go get a copy and read it. Read it right now.

If you have read Beartown, I would love to know what you thought about it. And if you haven’t, seriously go read it now.